*lover of christ

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

anyway.. have been trying my best to know my group better like lester annd glen.. hmm.. haha actually they are really very nice guys that i like to communicate with.. have been using lan as a tool..i really love my group and the ppl in there.. ppl like lester glen and even my former members.. the time spent together has been fruitful and fun.. lets love each other more each day man.. unit size!

crap.
9:27 PM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

hmm.. today is thursday.. after school i was having soccer some recreation cca.. i went to find a salon to cut my hair.. the ones that i wanna go.. in the end all close sianz...
but today has been a great chilling day for me.. went home and spent some time alone doing the stuff i like to do, slacking and reading papers.. took a nap at 7 and wake up at 9.. cos my com was open with music.. when i was half awake.. still sleeping" on my bed.. i felt a real urge to intercede after another strenous week for me.. i went out of bed and started to pray for my own spiritual life and my grp.. God challenged me and reminded me the decision i had to make over my crossroad, i cant just ignore it and close one eye! i forced myself to do what was right and that was to go for the right decisison, i didnt feel like.. but HE compelled me to do so. phew.. after that felt so relieved and refreshed..
all my worries and challenges were reflected on this verse..

Psalm 22
For the director of music. To the tune of "The Doe of the Morning." A psalm of David.
1 My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from the words of my groaning?
2 O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night, and am not silent.
3 Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One; you are the praise of Israel. [a]
4 In you our fathers put their trust; they trusted and you delivered them.
5 They cried to you and were saved; in you they trusted and were not disappointed.
6 But I am a worm and not a man, scorned by men and despised by the people.
7 All who see me mock me; they hurl insults, shaking their heads:
8 "He trusts in the LORD; let the LORD rescue him. Let him deliver him, since he delights in him."
9 Yet you brought me out of the womb; you made me trust in you even at my mother's breast.
10 From birth I was cast upon you; from my mother's womb you have been my God.
11 Do not be far from me, for trouble is near and there is no one to help.
12 Many bulls surround me; strong bulls of Bashan encircle me.
13 Roaring lions tearing their prey open their mouths wide against me.
14 I am poured out like water, and all my bones are out of joint. My heart has turned to wax; it has melted away within me.
15 My strength is dried up like a potsherd, and my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth; you lay me [b] in the dust of death

God... my heart is crying out to you today.. love you always..
i want to be focus in u.. hear my deepest heartcry!

crap.
7:50 AM

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

anyway.. sighs* not feeling that good hahaha.. my cg for the past two weeks.. and other personal stuff.. being 15 this year is really a year when often crossroads will be just ahead of me..... whether or not i will spend my youth period wisely .. i believe that i didnt really get over with the one previously.. and now i am facing something which is linked to it.. need to be very wise in the decision i make... kinda scared as well..i really really dun wanna make a wrong decision leading to the wrong step.......... its really me thinking for myself and my dependant life on him..

crap.
8:23 AM